The Shade of Green

Money has been on my mind a lot lately.

I wish I had more of it so that I would be able to do more things.

I have always wanted to travel ever since I could remember. I loved the thought of having money to travel all over the world and to stay at nice resorts located on beautiful beaches. But recently I desire money in a different capacity. Missions.

I want to travel to all those places that I've dreamed of going all my life, but as a missionary for God.

There is quite a list:

Morocco
Tanzania
Uganda
Rwanda
Kenya
Egypt
Israel
Lebanon
Costa Rica
Jamaica
Dominica
Brazil
Fiji
Australia
France
Italy
Austria
Germany
Greece
Italy
Spain
Russia
India
Sri Lanka

I've wanted to travel to many of these places for vacation but some I feel I need to travel to for mission purposes. I realize I probably won't make it to all the places I have listed, though it is nice to have goals written out.There are so many unreached people throughout the world and I know I can't do it all but my heart goes out to every one of them.

Back to the money issue.

I recently came back from India and I still miss it so much. I long to go back so badly but why can't I go back? Money. Even though a huge chunk of the required amount for mission trips is from donations, there is still quite a bit that has to come out-of-pocket. I won't be able to go back to India for another 2 years probably. Even longer for me to go to Africa (my second most desired place to go). It kills me that money is the reason for the delays.

But then I have to honestly think to myself...what if I did have all the money that it takes? Would I really use it for the right reasons? A couple years ago I would have probably said "No. I wouldn't." But now, after my experience in India...I have a passion for the lost and the unreached. If only I had the money to just pack up and go to these places to share Christ! I would do it in a heartbeat.

Maybe having less, is God's lesson to me. It's so much more humbling and moving to know that you don't have enough and then God provides in miraculous ways.